Monday, January 11, 2010

Total Freedom

Today my Daddy found freedom from his tortured body. Despite our sadness, we are thankful that he is finally at peace. Now I keep wondering what a daddy's girl is supposed to do when her daddy is gone. My Papi was the original eccentric I loved. Growing up in Mexico he was known in his town as "El Loco" (The crazy one) because he had the most unusual ideas and point of view. When I was a kid, I didn't always understand what motivated him, but as I grow older I find I am more and more like him. In fact, he is one of my main creative inspirations. He was a true individual. He was honest and tough, and had a wickedly sharp wit. Everyday, I aspire to be like him. I have to admit that it will be difficult to keep up a creative and positive outlook now that he is gone, but I also know that would be contradictory who he was. I know he would want me to keep being positive and keep finding humor in this bizarre world we live in.
Thanks to all of you for your kind words and prayers. I can't describe what they mean to me.

24 comments:

Tiffanie said...

sending good thoughts your way and prayers up...

Cote de Texas said...

Oh carolina I am so sorry for you. I hope you feel better soon. I am so sorry.

Zelda said...

send you a little pray . all my condolences dear .

My Decor Style said...

I am sorry for your loss. Your tribute is very moving and brings tears to my eyes. My prayers are with you!

notbeige said...

Love and prayers to you and your family xxx

Rachel F said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

karlee said...

He's in heaven and his health is restored!

shahnnen said...

as a daddy's girl who lost her father, too, i feel your pain. i'm very sorry for your loss. (hugs) prayers & best wishes.

C.J. said...

I Just lost my Mother last week and can understand what you are going through. I am so sorry, keep him in your heart and he will always be in your mind. Take care, Carol

Blog Author(s) said...

The conversations will continue, I promise. The difference is, you'll now listen in different ways.

Love never dies and neither does this sort of connection.

Your new conversations will surprise and soothe you.

This Daddy's girl is sending you love and light and wanting you to know that you are so loved.

Jane

Courtney said...

I have a lump in my throat and fear that there's nothing decent I could even begin to say to warm up this comment. I hurt for you, C. But as I read this post all I kept thinking about was how your description of your Dad was spot-on to you. I mean spot-on. You are a creative. You are a wonderful individual. With wickedly sharp wit. And I have no doubt you will continue to please your Dad from here on. Sending love! xx

LindsB said...

I am so sorry for your loss, sending good thoughts your way too :)

Tamanna A. Shaikh said...

Bless you and stay strong. Much love.

Uncle Beefy said...

Carolina, I am so, so, so sorry for your loss. Words can be of only so much consolation at a time like this so I won't try. But you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Jaana Coniel said...

Keep positive and creative, your dad would like that, I am sure he is following you and what you do. When ever you feel sad talk to him, he can hear you. Accepting his departure makes it easy for you day after day even you will always miss him. You have been blessed to have such a lovely father.

Carolina Eclectic said...

Thank you, thank you very much!
Hugs and kisses
Love
Carolina

Sarah - La Jeune Marie said...

I am so sorry for your loss. He sounded like an incredible man and father.

altman said...

i lost my mom a little over a year ago. it has been very hard but remembering and celebrating her life have become easier as the days pass. i am so sorry for your loss

Jane Schott said...

My thoughts are with you. Hold on to your wonderful memories.

Pink Wallpaper said...

Carolina, I am so sorry to hear about your father. No matter what you will always have those wonderful memories close to your heart.

Annie said...

Sending hugs to you, Carolina. I am so sorry you have had life's greatest loss at such a young age.

chanteusevca said...

Carolina, Your sweet post touched a chord in me. I lost my father many years ago now early Christmas morning. Your description of your father reminds me a lot of my father who always had unique and unusual ideas that some in our family thought were crazy. And I, too, feel that I am a lot like him.

I pray that you are comforted and feel your father's presence close to you as you continue to walk through this difficult time. Life is hard at times, but his love will always be there for you as you share it with others.

House and Life said...

Sending prayers and warm thoughts your way.

Courtney said...

Oh Carolina, I am sorry to be so belated in expressing my condolences, and I am even more sorry for your loss. Your father sounds like he was an incredible person, and I'd say you certainly inherited the traits you admired about him (creative, a true individual, honest, and a sharp wit are all words I would use to describe you.) Thinking of and praying for you and your family. xo