Friday, December 18, 2009

Holiday Blues

I'm not the only one who struggles with depression throughout the holidays, right? Why is that? I really try to enjoy Christmas time, but mostly it seems to bring me down. I hate that, but its the truth. Sorry to be such a downer today. Its just that its difficult for me not to be honest. My faith pushes me to be more positive and to invite good things into my life, but its a struggle at this time of year. I always feel like I haven't done enough for everyone and another year has slipped by. I don't have enough time to send out Christmas cards and take Liam to see Santa. I usually am scrambling at the last minute to finish buying gifts that I really can't afford, but feel guilty if I don't. Ahhhh! I want Christmas to be about my faith in Christ. I get frustrated that people refuse to acknowledge Christianity as the source of "Christmas" and yet my life doesn't seem to acknowledge that either! I mean what right do I have to complain?! I don't believe in expecting other people to do things I don't do. I have to say that I'm pretty fed up with these feelings I struggle with. (I'm only writing this, because it helps me when I get it all out). My life has to change. I already have been changing many things and will share them after the New Year.

You may be wondering what in the world these photos have to do with what I'm writing. Well, I posted them for purely selfish reasons. Basically, they make me happy! I needed a jolt of sunshine and fun and these photos have that, don't you think? I found them via Living Etc.

14 comments:

cassandra @ coco+kelley said...

Oh, honey, you are definitely not the only one! Christmas has lost its focus and I think that parts that bring us down are the expectations - gifts, spreading ourselves thin to see everyone and do everything... it's exhausting! Let it be about the spirit of the season - love and hope and all that you DO do - and it will lift you up. And while you're at it, do something for YOU! Sending you some merry+bright hugs... xo

Annie said...

Carolina, Like cassandra @ coco+kelley, I send you hugs and relate to your feelings. Brava...for your intelligence and courage in reaching out and stating what you feel. You are not alone in this. Time and action really do mend us.

Hugs,
Annie

Bethany Dirksen said...

How can that yellow lamp shade not make you happy! Get it all out girl..we are here to listen (or read)!

www.dirksendabbles.blogspot.com

Renae said...

Carolina,
Great words already...but it's good to get it out!
I'm so with you on the REAL meaning of Christmas has gotten lost in our PC society. It bothers me as well, but what can I do? Show the love of Christ to others, and be a sweet light! (I know you are).
Blessings to you and Merry Christmas.
xx

Sidney Ann said...

I totally know what you mean! But you know what, ever since my family decided not to exchange gifts, the holidays have been so relaxing and enjoyable. I didn't even realize how much energy all that gift-buying/planning takes up. I had so much extra time to just enjoy the simple things. I can't recommend this enough! Chin up, they'll be over before you know it. ;)

mysteryappeal said...

Don't despair. Jesus was fully God and also fully human, so he understands our human feelings.
Let your heart be glad and rejoice, as the Savior has come!

Natalie Marom Myers said...

These images are rad. Very funky and brave. Good picks to lift your spirit. Thanks for posting on my blog or I would have not found yours. And I am glad I did.

Courtney said...

Oh, C, I am thinking of you and hoping the next few days ARE joyous for you and not a big week of stress. You are a wonderful Mom, wife and friend, you have plenty to be satisfied about. Gifts and parties and holiday decorating, that's all the external signs of Christmas, you're right. As I sit in our treeless house and not a twinkling light around, this year more than ever I have no choice but to focus on the season's reason. And it's nice to not get bogged down in the rest. Hang in there and let that boy of yours help get you in the spirit. I KNOW he's full of joy and smiles. xx

ashlina said...

they are awesome! that yellow lamp makes my day happier too! :)
Spread the love of the joy of Jesus's birthday!!!
It's a GREAT message!

high fives.

Sarah Jane said...

i get the exact same way, the holidays have a tendency to be filled with stress and i agree that what lacks to be acknowledged is what may take away from the true meaning of it all. i tend to reflect very much this time of year, and it's nice of you to share. i hope there are many christmas miracles and joy for your family this holiday! merry merry:) xoxo sarah

Carolina Eclectic said...

Hi everyone
I can't tell you how nice it is to hear others feel the way I do. I mean, it shouldn't really matter; but it does:)
Sidney Ann, I've been contemplating the "no gifts" idea. Its very intriguing, but very revolutionary! I don't know if I'm brave enough to attempt it!

Erin said...

Sent you an ornament in my ornament exchange! Thanks for inspiring and supporting me!

Katherine Lee said...

you're definitely not the only one my dear! it's a tiring time, and it can definitely get pretty overwhelming, so i totally feel ya! on another note, i ADORE those living etc. photos. those are my kind of rooms. thanks for sharing!

xo katherine aka. urban flea :)
http://www.urbanfleadesign.net

Amy E. Strodl said...

Happy, happy to you! Beautiful images, thank you for sharing!